Its funny how people can often twist something around to make it into something it isnt at all.
Its funny how some people see loyalty on such different levels.
I dont believe in taking sides. But I do believe in standing up for someone when they know they haven't done anything wrong.
I do believe that if you know one of your friends are telling lies about another of your friends. You dont just stand on the sideline
The difference between right and wrong are so close together.
I honestly dont know how a person can stand by and let someone do that. Im sorry if that makes me a selfish person but I will always stick up for what I can see as clear as day what is right. Im sorry if it makes me a bad person if any of my friends are telling me lies about another friend, or if I see them telling others lies, I will voice myself and tell them so. Im sorry but I could just never stand by and watch another friend do that to another friend. At the very lest a real friend would know not to tell these lies to me, or anywhere that I can see.
I mean come on, they know they are lying. So why would they tell lies to someone who knows the truth?
Some things I will never understand I guess.
Sometimes I wish I really was the bitch I keep getting accused of being.
I wish I could be the wanker who will go out of their way to tell lies about people just to make themselves look good.
And to top it off because they are so good at lying people dont even seem to second guess him. Have they ever thought to come to the source and ask them themselves? Have they ever thought to even come by and have a look for them self if all the things that have been said have been said. Cause if they did, they would see Im nothing at all like the person they are making me out to be.
but people only seem to care about themselves now a days.
Which really puts me back to the how can a friend not defend a friend who they know isnt in the wrong. And how can a friend stand by while their other friend goes out of their way all the time to make up these lies. Tell me is that really what a friend is made of?
Its not interfering, its not putting your nose into someone else's bissness.
Its standing up for what you believe in, for your loved ones. And its knowing the difference between right and wrong, and knowing when you need to make a stand and stop being walked all over.
Its an OD thing you know I treat all my friends so much different then they treat me. Dont get me wrong Im not saying they are bad or that Im better or worse then anyone else. Its just that my loyalty towards my loved ones stands on a much higher scale.
Maybe thats because all my life I have had lovely caring family. I have been thought to always stand up for what you believe in, to always do the right thing, even if at times that means hurting someone else.
Sometimes that also means you end up losing someone you thought of as a friend.
But the thing is, when it comes down to it its better to have one or two friends you would trust with your life, then to have a lot of friends who are anything but.
I dunno I guess Im kinda stuck in the middle here.
I wish so badly that I would just forget about it all.
I forgive so easily. I really do. often too easily. Is that a bad thing? Maybe it is and maybe it isnt.
But you know its funny, cause no matter what I say, no matter how many people do know the truth and all of the truth, when you get something pumped into your head enough times. You cant help but start to believe it.
When it comes down to it, I know the truth, and thats all the matters. No matter what anyone else says nothing will ever take that away from me. No matter how much someone trys to bring me down, mo matter how much they want to lie about me, no matter how much they lie to other people about things. Be it about me or about themselves. I know the truth, that can never be taken away from me.
And no Im not going to stoop to the same level and rebal.
Why would I? thats like pissing in the sea.
People will believe what they want to believe, till they get slapped in the face and it all come crumbling down around them, and of course thats when I come in. Again, and again, and again,. sadly some people never learn.
If they did it would cause a lot less pain on their behalf.
Anyways thats all for now. Ill leave you with this.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
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Walking a tightrope isn't easy. Trying to balance the fact, the fiction (there's a lot of that on one side, and it's not yours), the loyalties, and most of all, the opinions. Opinion is just that. When idiots take opinion as fact, I step in. Taking someone else's argument and making it yours is stupid.
I never voice an opinion when arguments between friends come up, because I don't have one. Experience taught me to keep my mouth shut or risk everyone turning against me. I never had the opportunity to really know what it's like to be around a group of people and know they wouldn't turn their back on me. That's a relatively new thing to me.
I'm saying here and now something I never told you before. And I'm not even sure why I'm saying it in a public arena right now, but I will. I wasn't always distant from my brother. We used to get along pretty well. But my sister Kelly and my brother always had a strained relationship. She confided in me once that she was somewhat afraid of him, it was to do with an incident when I was four. I confronted him over it when I was 12. Things have been strained with him since. He blew up at me. Literally yelling. All I felt was betrayed. My own family just turning like that.
It's not that I don't want to do anything. It's that I won't let myself do anything because I'm afraid.
In all my life my friends never got along well. to the point that I never had a bday party with all my friends. bad things would happen. to me it's something I don't want to meddle with, especially when it doesn't concerns me. that's one thing. wars among common friends.
when they come to a state when lies are up in the table I do have to say: no, sorry, but that's not true, I've seen it different. and to the lier's eyes that was me taking sides. if that's what it looks then yes, when the situation demands it, I do take one side: the side of justness.
anyway, I'm out of the loop in here. I don't know what this is about besides someone lying about you. so this is one of those situations where I can just give a hug, lend an ear and wish for a happier day!...
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