Man what a week its been.
Finely the water has thinned out a little.
Blood always was thinker then water.
Lmfao that reminds me.. Tim remember we are related.. ~giggles~
been working all week and weekend. I now have 2 days off, then back into again, but no sleep overs till next week.
Most people dont realise this, but what I do isnt just looking after people with disabilatys, and mental disabilitys. Its also councerling. There is a lot of mental abuse and some phical abuse too.
I have bruises all around my ankles and wrists hehe ( No Im not talking about me having to be held down lmao.
Just a few patents get a little hmmm.
Also a cleaner a mother a sister and an Aunty. and to staff daughter)
lmfao I get called the baby of our little staff family cause Im the youngest to work there lmao. everyone else is in their late 30's and over and in 50's and one in her 60's .
There are two other woman who it seems the other staff dont like I have been informed. Which is why Ive been getting more hours, as my work "mothers" lol have decided they want me there and not the other two :P
Kinda felt nice to be looked at that way :) Im not used to that. Im so used to people shitting on me all the time because I dont like fighting so dont fight back, and very really defend myself. I will defend a friend or family with myself. But when it comes to defending and sticking up for myself. Only once in a blue moon that will happen. I just sit back and let people lie and tell shit about me..
The way I see it, the truth always comes out in the end.
Anyways back on topic hehe.
Ill be getting more hours :D
Sleep overs are a little rough though. Start either 1pm or 3:30pm, work right though till either 8:30am the next day, or worth though to 1pm or 3:30pm the next day.
Thsi weekend Ive started 3:30pm - 8:30am. then back that afternoon at 3:30pm - 1pm the next day. Had that night off. Then the next day did a 8am - 8pm and here I am now lol
Hmmm Ive missed a day in there somewhere hmmm. Im so tired I cant remember lmao.
went for 2 1 hour walks today and been on a 13 hour shift so Im pucked hehehe.
Anyways over and out,
take care
Arohanui xoxo
Monday, October 27, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
Its a secret life
Some of use hold secret lives, some of us an open book.
Some of use a forced to hide secrets from everyone they know because they have stalkers that repeat everything they say to others twisting it around turning it into something that is anything but the truth.
Some have people that they just dont trust. Why? because they have given them no reason to trust the.
Once bitten twice shy, you know how it is =)
Its funny though how you come across some people that no matter what will always have something bad to say about you, even though you dont ever talk about them.
How do you get this kinda person out of your life? the quick answer, you cant.
Its so sad to know that some people thrift off the pain of others.
I remember something a friend said to me.
Its the good people in this life we live that get punished, its the bad people that get what they want.
You see life isnt easy, so if you think it is, and you use other people to better yourself. Your time will come...
Yes that means you...
Ohh and by the way. I dont talk to you, I dont talk about you, you arnt worth wasting my time over. I never reply to anything you post about me.
The truth is people. I dont lie no matter who you are, if you really think about it, even those of you who dislike me, even hate me, you will know in your little cold hearts. I am many things buy a lyer is not one of them.
If anything Im often told Im too honest.
You can tell all the lies about me you wish to tell. But it will never change the fact that its you thats lying and its you that all those lies will catch up with. and its you that will be the one left standing alone.
Think about it, be honest not only to others, but to yourself.
if you are always truthful, you never have anything to lie about.
And dont be acusing me of doing or saying things I didnt do or say.
Its you that looks the fool with all your lies not me. :)
This is not directed at one person so if you think its about you, maybe it is, and maybe it isnt. Chances are it isnt though. But if you think it is, maybe you need to stop and think about your actions, its a good time to make things right.
Tell those you love, you love them as often as you can.
Dont die hating someone.
Dont hold guilt, guilt alone can kill you.
Always forgive those who have done wrong on you.
You may not realise this, or maybe you do, and you will also use this against me like you do everything else.
But I never hated you, despite of what you may think, or what you have been told.
You were someone I did hold close to as a friend. And even now after all the pain and lies you have told about me. If you came to me needing help, I would still do all I could to help you.
I always forgive, I just never forget.
I cant make you realise that, and Im not going to try, I tried that, and got slaped in the face for my efforts.
Those of you with love in your hearts, will have love in your eyes.
Those of you with hate in your hearts, will have hate in your death.
( deep arnt I lmao )
Some of use a forced to hide secrets from everyone they know because they have stalkers that repeat everything they say to others twisting it around turning it into something that is anything but the truth.
Some have people that they just dont trust. Why? because they have given them no reason to trust the.
Once bitten twice shy, you know how it is =)
Its funny though how you come across some people that no matter what will always have something bad to say about you, even though you dont ever talk about them.
How do you get this kinda person out of your life? the quick answer, you cant.
Its so sad to know that some people thrift off the pain of others.
I remember something a friend said to me.
Its the good people in this life we live that get punished, its the bad people that get what they want.
You see life isnt easy, so if you think it is, and you use other people to better yourself. Your time will come...
Yes that means you...
Ohh and by the way. I dont talk to you, I dont talk about you, you arnt worth wasting my time over. I never reply to anything you post about me.
The truth is people. I dont lie no matter who you are, if you really think about it, even those of you who dislike me, even hate me, you will know in your little cold hearts. I am many things buy a lyer is not one of them.
If anything Im often told Im too honest.
You can tell all the lies about me you wish to tell. But it will never change the fact that its you thats lying and its you that all those lies will catch up with. and its you that will be the one left standing alone.
Think about it, be honest not only to others, but to yourself.
if you are always truthful, you never have anything to lie about.
And dont be acusing me of doing or saying things I didnt do or say.
Its you that looks the fool with all your lies not me. :)
This is not directed at one person so if you think its about you, maybe it is, and maybe it isnt. Chances are it isnt though. But if you think it is, maybe you need to stop and think about your actions, its a good time to make things right.
Tell those you love, you love them as often as you can.
Dont die hating someone.
Dont hold guilt, guilt alone can kill you.
Always forgive those who have done wrong on you.
You may not realise this, or maybe you do, and you will also use this against me like you do everything else.
But I never hated you, despite of what you may think, or what you have been told.
You were someone I did hold close to as a friend. And even now after all the pain and lies you have told about me. If you came to me needing help, I would still do all I could to help you.
I always forgive, I just never forget.
I cant make you realise that, and Im not going to try, I tried that, and got slaped in the face for my efforts.
Those of you with love in your hearts, will have love in your eyes.
Those of you with hate in your hearts, will have hate in your death.
( deep arnt I lmao )
Sunday, October 5, 2008
A lie within
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