Have you ever felt so close to someone yet your so far away?
I have a few friends who I think the world of who I would move heaven and earth to help if I was able to. Some of them I havent known and have been in my life since I was 14. Others have come into my life other the past few years. Some I have never met in person. Some I miss treably but Id never admit that to them as they no longer talk to me even though I see them just about daily.
Thats the problem with some people they dont know how to share themselves between friends and lovers. So when they find themself in a relationship they find themselves so involved in it they tend to forget they also have friends who also love them abd miss them terribly.
You know I have a friend who only ever talks to me when she leaves yet another of her long line of loser boyfriends. Great friend she is aye. We have been friends since we were 14 years old. I was her only friend for so long because she was "different" and noone wanted to be near her.
Ohh well I guess Im what is known as being her leaning post.
Which brings me to Evan. Hes one of those friends who I would move heaven and earth for if I was able to. Not too long ago we were chatting about a few things. omfg for once it wasnt about sex either lol.. no hang on arse fucking was mentioned lol.. Bloody hell Evan cant we ever go a night without sex being mentioned in one way or another? Just cause you have.. and I quote "like mine, it's fat and flat and round and stubby.. >.> oh wait, that's my ass" lol..
Anyways as I was saying. we got a talking about friendships being there for someone else. I mentioned something about being a leaning post to which he replied with something like he will be mine.
Now this is not something I want from a friend, Evan is so much more to me then just someone to lean on when I need to be held up. Hes someone that yes of course will cheer me up if need be, and will do his best to be there. But thats not what a friendship if to me. It goes both ways. You lean on me and Ill lean on you, sometimes I man lean a little more and need a little more holding up. Sometimes you may lean on me and I need to hold you up a little more. But in the end we lean on each other hold each other up. The good the bad and the ugly ( thats a book about rugby here btw lol "the good the bad and the ugly" )
While talking to Evan I was reminded of a song that just made me think of him. ( Which I will get to soon ) While I was looking for it on youtube I came across this one. Ive heard this song before and it makes me cry when I haven't heard it in a while. Have a listen its a little churchy but you will get the gift of it.
Now that you have heard that one. Have a listen to this one.
This is the song I thought of and started to sing it while Even and I were talking.
Friends are family members we picked ourselves. That makes them more special because we chose to have them in our lives.
And I choose you <3
ohhh and this one here. if just for Tim <3
Have a special holidays everyone drive safely on the roads, dont speed and dont drink and drive. If you do. Your a bloody idiot :D ( just like Evan and I when we txt the wrong person when we are half asleep lol)