Well my birthdays been an gone. Nothing interesting happened. A lot of people didnt remember, people that should have remembered, which was a little hurtful. Ahh, but thats life and life goes one :)
I got this pretty cook close up kit from Mum and Dad for my birthday, have taken a few photos with it. But with working and being sick, I havent really had too much time to get into it . Its coming up 3am here as I write this, so really I should be sleeping.. But I have called in sick so I wont be working over the weekend. So I can have a good sleep. You know I have worked all weekends for the past hmmm. 3 years.
I took one weekend off last year for my friends 30th. And at the start of March I took 10 days off because I went on a trek. But other then that I work every weekend... I guess I just dont have a life lol.. ya know how it is, bills to pay, they dont pay for themselves now do they..
So anyways I have taken the weekend off. Ive just had my 4 days off for my fortnight. But I just feel like hell warmed up =( i also went to the doctor today. I counted before and Im now on 8 different meds.. Im turning into a walking drug store. I take more bloody meds then the people I look after do. I look after "crazy" people.. I dont like calling them that, as its not PC.. But if I dont, noone understand or knows what Im talking about.. So anyway I look after the IHC. is it sad that I take some of the same meds that they do? lol... Thats saying a lot isnt it. Kinda like the blind leading the blind :P hehe.
But really I takethem for different reasons and a much different dosage of them. dont worry guys Im not a nutter.. Im only half a nutter.. Working with people like that though, you never know maybe its rubbing off one me hehehe.
Anyways, Im gunna head off to bed now. My eyes are closing on me here. ll have to remmeber to write in here more often. Its not like anyone ever reads it, so I guess I can get a little more personal/ Or not hehe..
Bye all and RIP MJ and chick from Charlie's Angels.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
Its beena while hasnt it
Damn its been a while since I wrote in here hasnt it.
Its not like very many people pay attention to it anyway so hey no big deal.
So whats been happening with me.
I had an operation a while ago. Im on the mend though. Slowly but surely. Taking a lot longer then intended though. Which has pissed me off a little.
Ahh but lifes a bitch. Then you marry one. So what can ya do... Grow some balls, and maybe a spin.
Ohh check out this song
^^ there is a Youtube song up there ^^ but I dont know if its showing or not? It was a few mins ago, but now I see none seem to be showing at all.
Maybe its having a brain fart? I dunno..
ohh ohh ohh, who remembered this song?
Its just ^^ there, again I dont know if its showing :(
Poor John who has to put up with my random songs hehehe. Ohh well he does the same to me so, what goes around comes around. or what comes around goes around, which ever it is lol. Ohh John just linked me this.. You gotta watch it hehehe..
Hmm ok so back on track.
I went to work today, was meant to be a day where Leeann and I spend time with just Charlie and Sharon, take them out, get their personal things etc.
But no we end up having to go to the day centre with them. Charlie was meant to be going for a swim. But because Jess played up Leeann had to take her on a kick arse long walk.
So Charlie was then meant to go for his swim after lunch. But nooooo Kevin is more important. Sop yet again Charlie misses out.
So while Leeann is out with Jess, I have to take Sharon and Blinda for a walk. So down to the duck pond we go. Blinda talking the whole way "duck duck duck duck duck duck" the whole time.. lol. get back from that walk, and puff have to take Charlie for a walk.
Now Charlie is a big man and anything but light. And the pathments are not easy to push a wheelchair on at the best of times.
So the whole day was wrecked. :|
Also after working over the weekend its clear my leg isnt ready to go back to work now. Thank goodness Im covered by ACC who pay out 80% of my wages, so I only lose a little income. Not too bad.
Tomorrow Im off to see my sergen again to get more time off work..
Which is a good thing, and a bad thing. Im just not 100% sure which way to lean lol..
it means I get more time to talk to someone, and not miss them hehehe.
But it also means Im not working so Im not really doing much at all.
I could use the time to do things that need doing, but the problem is, it bloody hurts to do things.
I knew I should have said yes to accepting help with household things lol. Could have had me a cleaner in hahhahah
But nooooooo Im too slow arnt I lol
Woo Im soo tired, I feel like I havent slept in months and months lol.
Anyways so for the time being Im gunna go enjoy the nakierdness of myself :P
Ill write another blog later when Im a little more into talking about things.
Its not like very many people pay attention to it anyway so hey no big deal.
So whats been happening with me.
I had an operation a while ago. Im on the mend though. Slowly but surely. Taking a lot longer then intended though. Which has pissed me off a little.
Ahh but lifes a bitch. Then you marry one. So what can ya do... Grow some balls, and maybe a spin.
Ohh check out this song
^^ there is a Youtube song up there ^^ but I dont know if its showing or not? It was a few mins ago, but now I see none seem to be showing at all.
Maybe its having a brain fart? I dunno..
ohh ohh ohh, who remembered this song?
Its just ^^ there, again I dont know if its showing :(
Poor John who has to put up with my random songs hehehe. Ohh well he does the same to me so, what goes around comes around. or what comes around goes around, which ever it is lol. Ohh John just linked me this.. You gotta watch it hehehe..
The Colbert ReportMon - Thurs 11:30pm / 10:30c
Hmm ok so back on track.
I went to work today, was meant to be a day where Leeann and I spend time with just Charlie and Sharon, take them out, get their personal things etc.
But no we end up having to go to the day centre with them. Charlie was meant to be going for a swim. But because Jess played up Leeann had to take her on a kick arse long walk.
So Charlie was then meant to go for his swim after lunch. But nooooo Kevin is more important. Sop yet again Charlie misses out.
So while Leeann is out with Jess, I have to take Sharon and Blinda for a walk. So down to the duck pond we go. Blinda talking the whole way "duck duck duck duck duck duck" the whole time.. lol. get back from that walk, and puff have to take Charlie for a walk.
Now Charlie is a big man and anything but light. And the pathments are not easy to push a wheelchair on at the best of times.
So the whole day was wrecked. :|
Also after working over the weekend its clear my leg isnt ready to go back to work now. Thank goodness Im covered by ACC who pay out 80% of my wages, so I only lose a little income. Not too bad.
Tomorrow Im off to see my sergen again to get more time off work..
Which is a good thing, and a bad thing. Im just not 100% sure which way to lean lol..
it means I get more time to talk to someone, and not miss them hehehe.
But it also means Im not working so Im not really doing much at all.
I could use the time to do things that need doing, but the problem is, it bloody hurts to do things.
I knew I should have said yes to accepting help with household things lol. Could have had me a cleaner in hahhahah
But nooooooo Im too slow arnt I lol
Woo Im soo tired, I feel like I havent slept in months and months lol.
Anyways so for the time being Im gunna go enjoy the nakierdness of myself :P
Ill write another blog later when Im a little more into talking about things.
Friday, December 19, 2008
Have you ever
Have you ever felt so close to someone yet your so far away?
I have a few friends who I think the world of who I would move heaven and earth to help if I was able to. Some of them I havent known and have been in my life since I was 14. Others have come into my life other the past few years. Some I have never met in person. Some I miss treably but Id never admit that to them as they no longer talk to me even though I see them just about daily.
Thats the problem with some people they dont know how to share themselves between friends and lovers. So when they find themself in a relationship they find themselves so involved in it they tend to forget they also have friends who also love them abd miss them terribly.
You know I have a friend who only ever talks to me when she leaves yet another of her long line of loser boyfriends. Great friend she is aye. We have been friends since we were 14 years old. I was her only friend for so long because she was "different" and noone wanted to be near her.
Ohh well I guess Im what is known as being her leaning post.
Which brings me to Evan. Hes one of those friends who I would move heaven and earth for if I was able to. Not too long ago we were chatting about a few things. omfg for once it wasnt about sex either lol.. no hang on arse fucking was mentioned lol.. Bloody hell Evan cant we ever go a night without sex being mentioned in one way or another? Just cause you have.. and I quote "like mine, it's fat and flat and round and stubby.. >.> oh wait, that's my ass" lol..
Anyways as I was saying. we got a talking about friendships being there for someone else. I mentioned something about being a leaning post to which he replied with something like he will be mine.
Now this is not something I want from a friend, Evan is so much more to me then just someone to lean on when I need to be held up. Hes someone that yes of course will cheer me up if need be, and will do his best to be there. But thats not what a friendship if to me. It goes both ways. You lean on me and Ill lean on you, sometimes I man lean a little more and need a little more holding up. Sometimes you may lean on me and I need to hold you up a little more. But in the end we lean on each other hold each other up. The good the bad and the ugly ( thats a book about rugby here btw lol "the good the bad and the ugly" )
While talking to Evan I was reminded of a song that just made me think of him. ( Which I will get to soon ) While I was looking for it on youtube I came across this one. Ive heard this song before and it makes me cry when I haven't heard it in a while. Have a listen its a little churchy but you will get the gift of it.
Now that you have heard that one. Have a listen to this one.
This is the song I thought of and started to sing it while Even and I were talking.
Friends are family members we picked ourselves. That makes them more special because we chose to have them in our lives.
And I choose you <3
ohhh and this one here. if just for Tim <3
Have a special holidays everyone drive safely on the roads, dont speed and dont drink and drive. If you do. Your a bloody idiot :D ( just like Evan and I when we txt the wrong person when we are half asleep lol)
I have a few friends who I think the world of who I would move heaven and earth to help if I was able to. Some of them I havent known and have been in my life since I was 14. Others have come into my life other the past few years. Some I have never met in person. Some I miss treably but Id never admit that to them as they no longer talk to me even though I see them just about daily.
Thats the problem with some people they dont know how to share themselves between friends and lovers. So when they find themself in a relationship they find themselves so involved in it they tend to forget they also have friends who also love them abd miss them terribly.
You know I have a friend who only ever talks to me when she leaves yet another of her long line of loser boyfriends. Great friend she is aye. We have been friends since we were 14 years old. I was her only friend for so long because she was "different" and noone wanted to be near her.
Ohh well I guess Im what is known as being her leaning post.
Which brings me to Evan. Hes one of those friends who I would move heaven and earth for if I was able to. Not too long ago we were chatting about a few things. omfg for once it wasnt about sex either lol.. no hang on arse fucking was mentioned lol.. Bloody hell Evan cant we ever go a night without sex being mentioned in one way or another? Just cause you have.. and I quote "like mine, it's fat and flat and round and stubby.. >.> oh wait, that's my ass" lol..
Anyways as I was saying. we got a talking about friendships being there for someone else. I mentioned something about being a leaning post to which he replied with something like he will be mine.
Now this is not something I want from a friend, Evan is so much more to me then just someone to lean on when I need to be held up. Hes someone that yes of course will cheer me up if need be, and will do his best to be there. But thats not what a friendship if to me. It goes both ways. You lean on me and Ill lean on you, sometimes I man lean a little more and need a little more holding up. Sometimes you may lean on me and I need to hold you up a little more. But in the end we lean on each other hold each other up. The good the bad and the ugly ( thats a book about rugby here btw lol "the good the bad and the ugly" )
While talking to Evan I was reminded of a song that just made me think of him. ( Which I will get to soon ) While I was looking for it on youtube I came across this one. Ive heard this song before and it makes me cry when I haven't heard it in a while. Have a listen its a little churchy but you will get the gift of it.
Now that you have heard that one. Have a listen to this one.
This is the song I thought of and started to sing it while Even and I were talking.
Friends are family members we picked ourselves. That makes them more special because we chose to have them in our lives.
And I choose you <3
ohhh and this one here. if just for Tim <3
Have a special holidays everyone drive safely on the roads, dont speed and dont drink and drive. If you do. Your a bloody idiot :D ( just like Evan and I when we txt the wrong person when we are half asleep lol)
Friday, December 5, 2008
My the year has gone by fast
Is it just me? or has the year gone by really fast?
Love has come, and love has gone.
If made friends, and I've lost friends.
New family members have arrived and Ive also lost some family members.
I also lost my best friend, my baby, my pet my life companion of 17 years.
You cant imagine how much I miss her.
Showing off my dA cap.
She was always more then happy to pose for me.
Again see how happy she is to pose for me.
This was taken only a week or so before she died =(
She never minded my cats snuggling up with her.
Man I miss her so much.
A poem I wrote
Goodbye my friend Peanut
Seventeen years ago you came to me,
the runt of the litter small and tiny.
It was love at first sight,
Came into my life shining so bright.
Always by my side,
there for the long ride.
You were always so strong,
your life was long.
You've left my side now,
to make a new path of your own,
straight up to heaven,
thats where you'll go.
Its with my Nana you will stay,
till we meet again one day.
You can read and comment on this poem HERE
Ive also now working full time.
For the first time ever, I wont be home for Christmas, and I only live up the road from my parents.
I will be working right though Christmas.
My Mum is guttered about that. As she loves Christmas and never has she ever not had her children with her at lest part of the day. But I wont be there for any of it.
Anyways speaking of work I have to go to work now.
Take care all <3
Love has come, and love has gone.
If made friends, and I've lost friends.
New family members have arrived and Ive also lost some family members.
I also lost my best friend, my baby, my pet my life companion of 17 years.
You cant imagine how much I miss her.
Showing off my dA cap.
She was always more then happy to pose for me.
Again see how happy she is to pose for me.
This was taken only a week or so before she died =(
She never minded my cats snuggling up with her.
Man I miss her so much.
A poem I wrote
Goodbye my friend Peanut
Seventeen years ago you came to me,
the runt of the litter small and tiny.
It was love at first sight,
Came into my life shining so bright.
Always by my side,
there for the long ride.
You were always so strong,
your life was long.
You've left my side now,
to make a new path of your own,
straight up to heaven,
thats where you'll go.
Its with my Nana you will stay,
till we meet again one day.
You can read and comment on this poem HERE
Ive also now working full time.
For the first time ever, I wont be home for Christmas, and I only live up the road from my parents.
I will be working right though Christmas.
My Mum is guttered about that. As she loves Christmas and never has she ever not had her children with her at lest part of the day. But I wont be there for any of it.
Anyways speaking of work I have to go to work now.
Take care all <3
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Ohh Kevin how I love you
I went to see this dude live a few years ago.
If you have no sence of humor you wont like him.
But if you do, and you dont mind swearing and a damn good laugh.
Ohh and you must be able to laugh at yourself too.
Ok lets start off with the word cunt and Canadians.
Do you fuck on first dates? ohhh I know some that dont even need the date part
Now if you are from America if you dont have a reallyyyyy good sense of humour this one sure as hell isnt for you. DO NOT click on it hehe.
An Oldy but a goodie. Ever try and make a call, and you get some stupid operator that didnt know jack shit. This ones for you.
And last but not lest.. Seen as its that time of the year again when Christmas is sneaking up on us way too fast.
If you have no sence of humor you wont like him.
But if you do, and you dont mind swearing and a damn good laugh.
Ohh and you must be able to laugh at yourself too.
Ok lets start off with the word cunt and Canadians.
Do you fuck on first dates? ohhh I know some that dont even need the date part
Now if you are from America if you dont have a reallyyyyy good sense of humour this one sure as hell isnt for you. DO NOT click on it hehe.
An Oldy but a goodie. Ever try and make a call, and you get some stupid operator that didnt know jack shit. This ones for you.
And last but not lest.. Seen as its that time of the year again when Christmas is sneaking up on us way too fast.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Yawns
Man what a week its been.
Finely the water has thinned out a little.
Blood always was thinker then water.
Lmfao that reminds me.. Tim remember we are related.. ~giggles~
been working all week and weekend. I now have 2 days off, then back into again, but no sleep overs till next week.
Most people dont realise this, but what I do isnt just looking after people with disabilatys, and mental disabilitys. Its also councerling. There is a lot of mental abuse and some phical abuse too.
I have bruises all around my ankles and wrists hehe ( No Im not talking about me having to be held down lmao.
Just a few patents get a little hmmm.
Also a cleaner a mother a sister and an Aunty. and to staff daughter)
lmfao I get called the baby of our little staff family cause Im the youngest to work there lmao. everyone else is in their late 30's and over and in 50's and one in her 60's .
There are two other woman who it seems the other staff dont like I have been informed. Which is why Ive been getting more hours, as my work "mothers" lol have decided they want me there and not the other two :P
Kinda felt nice to be looked at that way :) Im not used to that. Im so used to people shitting on me all the time because I dont like fighting so dont fight back, and very really defend myself. I will defend a friend or family with myself. But when it comes to defending and sticking up for myself. Only once in a blue moon that will happen. I just sit back and let people lie and tell shit about me..
The way I see it, the truth always comes out in the end.
Anyways back on topic hehe.
Ill be getting more hours :D
Sleep overs are a little rough though. Start either 1pm or 3:30pm, work right though till either 8:30am the next day, or worth though to 1pm or 3:30pm the next day.
Thsi weekend Ive started 3:30pm - 8:30am. then back that afternoon at 3:30pm - 1pm the next day. Had that night off. Then the next day did a 8am - 8pm and here I am now lol
Hmmm Ive missed a day in there somewhere hmmm. Im so tired I cant remember lmao.
went for 2 1 hour walks today and been on a 13 hour shift so Im pucked hehehe.
Anyways over and out,
take care
Arohanui xoxo
Finely the water has thinned out a little.
Blood always was thinker then water.
Lmfao that reminds me.. Tim remember we are related.. ~giggles~
been working all week and weekend. I now have 2 days off, then back into again, but no sleep overs till next week.
Most people dont realise this, but what I do isnt just looking after people with disabilatys, and mental disabilitys. Its also councerling. There is a lot of mental abuse and some phical abuse too.
I have bruises all around my ankles and wrists hehe ( No Im not talking about me having to be held down lmao.
Just a few patents get a little hmmm.
Also a cleaner a mother a sister and an Aunty. and to staff daughter)
lmfao I get called the baby of our little staff family cause Im the youngest to work there lmao. everyone else is in their late 30's and over and in 50's and one in her 60's .
There are two other woman who it seems the other staff dont like I have been informed. Which is why Ive been getting more hours, as my work "mothers" lol have decided they want me there and not the other two :P
Kinda felt nice to be looked at that way :) Im not used to that. Im so used to people shitting on me all the time because I dont like fighting so dont fight back, and very really defend myself. I will defend a friend or family with myself. But when it comes to defending and sticking up for myself. Only once in a blue moon that will happen. I just sit back and let people lie and tell shit about me..
The way I see it, the truth always comes out in the end.
Anyways back on topic hehe.
Ill be getting more hours :D
Sleep overs are a little rough though. Start either 1pm or 3:30pm, work right though till either 8:30am the next day, or worth though to 1pm or 3:30pm the next day.
Thsi weekend Ive started 3:30pm - 8:30am. then back that afternoon at 3:30pm - 1pm the next day. Had that night off. Then the next day did a 8am - 8pm and here I am now lol
Hmmm Ive missed a day in there somewhere hmmm. Im so tired I cant remember lmao.
went for 2 1 hour walks today and been on a 13 hour shift so Im pucked hehehe.
Anyways over and out,
take care
Arohanui xoxo
Monday, October 13, 2008
Its a secret life
Some of use hold secret lives, some of us an open book.
Some of use a forced to hide secrets from everyone they know because they have stalkers that repeat everything they say to others twisting it around turning it into something that is anything but the truth.
Some have people that they just dont trust. Why? because they have given them no reason to trust the.
Once bitten twice shy, you know how it is =)
Its funny though how you come across some people that no matter what will always have something bad to say about you, even though you dont ever talk about them.
How do you get this kinda person out of your life? the quick answer, you cant.
Its so sad to know that some people thrift off the pain of others.
I remember something a friend said to me.
Its the good people in this life we live that get punished, its the bad people that get what they want.
You see life isnt easy, so if you think it is, and you use other people to better yourself. Your time will come...
Yes that means you...
Ohh and by the way. I dont talk to you, I dont talk about you, you arnt worth wasting my time over. I never reply to anything you post about me.
The truth is people. I dont lie no matter who you are, if you really think about it, even those of you who dislike me, even hate me, you will know in your little cold hearts. I am many things buy a lyer is not one of them.
If anything Im often told Im too honest.
You can tell all the lies about me you wish to tell. But it will never change the fact that its you thats lying and its you that all those lies will catch up with. and its you that will be the one left standing alone.
Think about it, be honest not only to others, but to yourself.
if you are always truthful, you never have anything to lie about.
And dont be acusing me of doing or saying things I didnt do or say.
Its you that looks the fool with all your lies not me. :)
This is not directed at one person so if you think its about you, maybe it is, and maybe it isnt. Chances are it isnt though. But if you think it is, maybe you need to stop and think about your actions, its a good time to make things right.
Tell those you love, you love them as often as you can.
Dont die hating someone.
Dont hold guilt, guilt alone can kill you.
Always forgive those who have done wrong on you.
You may not realise this, or maybe you do, and you will also use this against me like you do everything else.
But I never hated you, despite of what you may think, or what you have been told.
You were someone I did hold close to as a friend. And even now after all the pain and lies you have told about me. If you came to me needing help, I would still do all I could to help you.
I always forgive, I just never forget.
I cant make you realise that, and Im not going to try, I tried that, and got slaped in the face for my efforts.
Those of you with love in your hearts, will have love in your eyes.
Those of you with hate in your hearts, will have hate in your death.
( deep arnt I lmao )
Some of use a forced to hide secrets from everyone they know because they have stalkers that repeat everything they say to others twisting it around turning it into something that is anything but the truth.
Some have people that they just dont trust. Why? because they have given them no reason to trust the.
Once bitten twice shy, you know how it is =)
Its funny though how you come across some people that no matter what will always have something bad to say about you, even though you dont ever talk about them.
How do you get this kinda person out of your life? the quick answer, you cant.
Its so sad to know that some people thrift off the pain of others.
I remember something a friend said to me.
Its the good people in this life we live that get punished, its the bad people that get what they want.
You see life isnt easy, so if you think it is, and you use other people to better yourself. Your time will come...
Yes that means you...
Ohh and by the way. I dont talk to you, I dont talk about you, you arnt worth wasting my time over. I never reply to anything you post about me.
The truth is people. I dont lie no matter who you are, if you really think about it, even those of you who dislike me, even hate me, you will know in your little cold hearts. I am many things buy a lyer is not one of them.
If anything Im often told Im too honest.
You can tell all the lies about me you wish to tell. But it will never change the fact that its you thats lying and its you that all those lies will catch up with. and its you that will be the one left standing alone.
Think about it, be honest not only to others, but to yourself.
if you are always truthful, you never have anything to lie about.
And dont be acusing me of doing or saying things I didnt do or say.
Its you that looks the fool with all your lies not me. :)
This is not directed at one person so if you think its about you, maybe it is, and maybe it isnt. Chances are it isnt though. But if you think it is, maybe you need to stop and think about your actions, its a good time to make things right.
Tell those you love, you love them as often as you can.
Dont die hating someone.
Dont hold guilt, guilt alone can kill you.
Always forgive those who have done wrong on you.
You may not realise this, or maybe you do, and you will also use this against me like you do everything else.
But I never hated you, despite of what you may think, or what you have been told.
You were someone I did hold close to as a friend. And even now after all the pain and lies you have told about me. If you came to me needing help, I would still do all I could to help you.
I always forgive, I just never forget.
I cant make you realise that, and Im not going to try, I tried that, and got slaped in the face for my efforts.
Those of you with love in your hearts, will have love in your eyes.
Those of you with hate in your hearts, will have hate in your death.
( deep arnt I lmao )
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